Good Monday Morning
It is a good morning here in map-dot, Michigan. I was blessed to spend time with family this weekend, to attend church and work with the children’s ministry on Sunday, and to have time to relax and read.
Like all weekends, the time went by too fast. I usually have Mondays off but today I am working to make up for the time I will miss on Thursday when I go to a medical appointment.
Several thoughts came to mind throughout the weekend and I’m sharing them here. My life’s journey includes ups and downs like anyone else’s. However, because I have bipolar disorder and battle depression and anxiety, even small challenges can become overwhelming.
In 2021, I received many blessings.
I had two books published by Anaiah Press. I built up my blog and presence on social media, gaining a following of readers from various parts of the U.S. and other countries. My number of local readers also increased.
After trying a couple of different jobs, I finally found a job that I love and feel like I am good at. I’ve met interesting and lovely people who make the job rewarding.
I’ve also grown closer to my kids who are my greatest blessings in my life, in large part due to the pets we’ve rescued.
Around Thanksgiving, I started working with children’s church again, something I used to enjoy before Pat passed away.
In spite of these wonderful blessings, I found myself struggling with depression towards the end of 2021.
That struggle carried over into the month of January and began to affect my job.
Recognizing the depression because I have experienced it before, I sought help from my therapist. I’d forgotten the tools I learned in counseling.
I’d lost my way.
Now I’m working with my counselor to get back on track in the fight against depression. I’m also seeing my doctor about changes in my medication.
I’m trying to get back into exercising daily, which I had gradually given up starting around Thanksgiving. All the overeating over the holidays didn’t help and I ended up putting on a few pounds that I’d lost.
I also began to neglect my spiritual life as I stopped reading the Bible and praying which I’d been doing daily for many months.
Now I am carving time in my day for devotions so I can draw closer to God and gain wisdom in how to spend my days. And to help me treat the people in my life well.
What will 2022 bring?
I have an annual review of my job coming up. There have been some complaints from clients about me missing work. Most of the days I missed were due to mental health or physical ailments. I was exposed to Covid a few times and had to quarantine although I didn’t get sick. I know I can’t get fired for that, but I’m nervous about what the evaluation will show.
As far as my writing goes, after the initial excitement of my book releases died down, I was unable to complete work on two novellas that I’d started. Then came a contest that I wanted to enter which means increased writing time.
I’ve spent the past few days organizing my writing projects for the year which include one holiday novella and writing for the contest. I will concentrate on those two things and put the rest on the back burner until these are complete.
I’m also writing lessons for children’s church. I’m putting together curriculum that teaches the story of how Jesus grew from an infant who was born at Christmas to when He grew up and died on the cross and was resurrected.
I want to teach the children I’ll be working about how God loves all children, and all people, the same, no matter what their differences are.
In a world of hate and discord, I want the church to be a safe place where children can learn kindness towards each other. We adults need to learn that lesson as well.
In order to prepare these lessons, I have to believe and practice what I am teaching.
In my day job, it’s important that I show kindness and patience with the people I work for.
In my home life, it’s also important that I am patient and kind.
I still have days when I don’t feel those things, but I am confident enough to put them into practice regardless.