May I have this Dance Chapter 7

Chapter Seven

Brooke

When Brooke told her kids that she hired a babysitter for Friday night, Devon argued that he could stay by himself and watch Brinley.

            “I don’t want some teenager to watch us.”

            “She won’t bother you, Devon. But it will be good for Brinley to have some company. And you’re responsible, but you are not mature enough to take care of Brinley.”

            “What is there to take care of? She is just going to watch princess movies and play with her ponies.”

            “I can see the two of you getting into an argument and Brinley throwing a tantrum.”
            “She does that all the time. I’m used to it.”

            “No more arguing about it. I’m going to ask one of the neighbor girls to watch you.”

After securing a babysitter, Brooke went through everything in her closet trying to find something suitable to wear. She had not purchased anything new since Carl passed away. She had worked up until the accident, and it was business casual at the office. So she had some casual dresses, blouses and slacks to choose from. But they were a little outdated, and nothing looked just right. 

            She held some of the outfits up to her and looked in the mirror. It was then she realized that she hadn’t had a haircut all summer. She had worn it up for the reunion. It was the second week of August and the temperature was hot and humid. She decided to wear her hair up for their date.

            Finally, she decided on a flowered cotton dress. It was sleeveless, but the V-neck was modest. She accessorized with a colored bead necklace and matching earrings.

            “Mom, you look beautiful!” Brinley exclaimed when she walked into the living room.

Devon looked up and his jaw dropped open. “Who are you going out with again?”

            “An old friend from high school,” she said casually. “I told you that. His name is Chase, and he has a boy your age and a girl Brinley’s age. His mom is a friend of Grandma’s.”

            “Will we meet him?” Brinley asked with excitement.

            “I think you will.” She figured Chase was old-fashioned enough that he would come in and meet her kids before taking her on a date. At least, she expected him to.

            She was not disappointed. At six o’clock there was a knock on the front door. She went to open it, and Brinley beat her to it. The door flew open and Chase stood there, tall and handsome. He had chosen to go clean-shaven tonight. At the reunion he had worn a trim beard. She had liked the look. But she had to admit, he looked even more handsome tonight, if possible. He had a bouquet of pink and white roses in his hands.

            “Come on in, Chase. This is my daughter, Brinley.”

“Hi, Brinley. It’s nice to meet you.”

“You brought my mom flowers?”

Chase turned a shade of red. His eyes met Brooke’s. He held out the flowers, and she took them from him.

“I wasn’t sure what would be appropriate.”

“Any flowers are always appropriate. Thank you. I’ll find something to put these in.”

She found a vase under the sink, filled it with water and arranged the flowers in it. She could hear Brinley talking to Chase. She was asking him about his daughter and what her name was. Brooke carried the vase into the living room and set it on the coffee table. It had been a long time since she had received fresh flowers. She was thrilled with his thoughtfulness.

Devon came downstairs.

Brooke put her arm around Devon’s shoulder. He stiffened and she removed it. She hadn’t meant to embarrass him. “This is Devon.”

            “Hi, Devon. It’s nice to meet you.”

            “Are you a stranger?” Brinley asked.

            “I’m not a stranger to your mom. We went to school together.”

            “A long time ago,” Devon muttered.

            Chase laughed. “That makes us sound ancient.”

            There was another knock, and Brinley opened the door to let their babysitter in.

            “Hello, Daelyn,” Brooke greeted the teenager. “There’s a pizza in the freezer, and I bought chips and pop.”

            “Mom only buys chips and pop when it’s a celebration,” Brinley said.

            Brooke blushed as Chase looked at her and grinned.

Chase

A celebration, huh? He couldn’t help feeling a little bit like celebrating, himself. One week ago he had not dreamed of dating again. And to date Brooke had never crossed his mind. He didn’t even really know her. But that was the purpose of the date, right? To get to know her. She fascinated him, and he was looking forward to learning more about her.

            She looked great. She had on a flowery dress with bright colors, and matching beads and dangling earrings. She had worn her hair up like she had at the reunion. He liked it that way, but it made him imagine what it would be like to take it all down.

            He looked away from her and addressed the babysitter. “I have a pizza ordered that will be delivered around six-thirty. It’s already paid for including the tip, all you have to do is accept it.”

            “We don’t get pizza delivered,” Brinley said.

            That was a shocker. “You don’t order pizza delivery?”

            Brooke looked embarrassed. “I don’t really trust someone to come to the house when I’m not here.”

            “Even the pizza delivery guy?”

            She blushed, but nodded.

“Do you want me to cancel it?” He checked his phone. “There’s still time, I think.”

“Would you mind? I appreciate the gesture, but I’m not comfortable with the idea.”

He didn’t tell her that he knew the owners of the pizza parlor and their delivery people were trustworthy. He had to respect her decision, even if he thought it more than a little odd. This was a small town. But then, he remembered, she had lived in Detroit for several years. Maybe she had forgotten how little crime there was in their town.

He stepped outside and called to cancel the pizza. “It’s already in the oven,” the employee told him. “What should we do with it?”
            “Why don’t you treat yourselves to it tonight? Eat it on your break or split it up and take it home with you.”

            “Awesome! Thanks!”

Brooke stepped outside and shut the door behind her. “I don’t see your pickup.”

            “I brought my mom’s SUV.” He glanced at her skirt and heels. “I wasn’t sure what you were wearing. You look great, by the way.”

            She blushed, and he wondered how long it had been since someone had told her that. By someone, he meant a man. He wondered if she had dated at all since her husband passed away. But he wasn’t going to ask her that, not yet, anyway. Maybe she would mention it.

            He opened her door, and when she was comfortably seated, he went around and got in behind the wheel. He realized his heart was pounding nervously. So far, he thought he had done all right, but now they were alone together. He didn’t know if he could carry on conversation like he had been practicing in his head. He wished he had that cool confidence he’d had in high school. Lisa’s betrayal had killed that, leaving him insecure about his effect on women.

            “Thank you for understanding about the pizza,” she said.

            “Is it because you lived in the city?”

            “Yes, I don’t trust someone to come to the door.”

            “You don’t have to worry about crime here. At least, there hasn’t been a robbery by a pizza delivery person that I know of.”

            He wondered if she was offended by his remark, but then he saw the smile. It started in her eyes, then slowly the corners of her mouth turned up.

            “There were a couple of robberies in town a few years ago,” he admitted. “Some kids broke into a few of the businesses and made out with a little cash and alcohol.”

            “I remember my mom telling me about that. It was pretty hard to believe, but I guess there are some troubled teens no matter where you live.”

            “I’m hoping to avoid that with my kids. With Josh. He’s already started with an attitude. They say is normal at his age.”

            “Devon has, also. Just like tonight. He didn’t want a babysitter, but I know he and Brinley still fight. I don’t trust them to stay home alone and not get into an argument.” Her eyes met his, with a shy smile. “I didn’t want any phone calls while we were eating dinner.”

            “What grade is Devon in?”
            “He starts seventh this year.”

            “So does Josh. And Maddie will be in third.”

            “So will Brinley. It’s kind of funny, isn’t it, that our kids are the same ages?”

            His eyes met hers. “Our lives have kind of paralleled each other’s, haven’t they?”

            “I didn’t realize how much until we talked the other night. My mom has mentioned something like that a couple of times.”

            “My mom has brought up your name a couple of times,” Chase said. “I never realized that we had so much in common, I guess.”

            “Do you think they were trying to play matchmaker?”

            He shrugged. “I don’t think my mom would. She knew I took it pretty hard when Lisa passed away. I haven’t been ready to think about dating, and I think she knew it.”

            “Then it just naturally came about.”

            “I think that’s pretty cool, don’t you? I mean, there you were, looking gorgeous, and I wanted to dance with you.” She blushed at his compliment. Then he added, “I can’t believe I was brave enough to ask, after you shot down both Ben and Nate.”

            “Nate’s reputation preceded him.”

            “Yeah, he has a reputation. He hasn’t changed much since high school, unfortunately.”

            “Megan said he cheated on his first wife.”

            Chase’s jaw tightened. “He denies it, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he did.”

            “I consider Ben a friend. He went to Michigan State at the same time I did. He took his studies pretty seriously. I know he met his wife there. They invited Carl and I to their wedding.”

            “Did you go?”

            “We did. His wife is nice, and I didn’t feel comfortable dancing with a married man. Even though he said his wife told him it was all right to dance, as long as he danced with me.”

            “I see he danced with Barbara.”

            “He did, and after we left, he kept drinking. When she danced with him again later, he got a little handsy, I guess.”

Handsy.

His mouth stretched into a grin. The idea of getting “handsy” with Brooke had crossed his mind a few times when they were dancing. He’d felt too mature to hit on her at the class reunion. But he had imagined what it would be like to embrace Brooke somewhere in private, and she had very kissable lips.

            He pulled into the parking lot of the popular chain restaurant. It was busy. They didn’t take reservations, and he worried that they would have to wait a long time for a table. As he held the door open for her, she brushed his shoulder as she passed him. He could smell her flowery perfume.

            He was surprised when she took out her cell phone and checked it. “I want to see if Devon had texted. I gave the babysitter instructions to call, but sometimes he texts me with silly questions.”

            “My mom would call if there was any trouble, but Josh would text. I bought him a cell phone for his twelfth birthday.”

            “That’s when I bought one for Devon. When is Josh’s birthday?”

            “June.”

            “Devon’s is in December. He came during a blizzard, and Carl had a hard time getting out of the driveway and to the hospital.”

            “I didn’t realize you would get a lot of snow in Detroit.”

            “Oh, it comes in heavy sometimes. It doesn’t take long for them to plow the streets, but that was the middle of the night.”

            “How do you feel about winter?”

            The hostess approached them. “Your table is ready.”

            After they were seated, Brooke picked up the menu and started looking at it. Realizing Chase had asked her a question, she said, “I like winter, but I’m not much of a sports person. In high school, I ice skated and skied some.”

            “I haven’t skied for a long time, but it might be kind of fun to try it again I have a couple of snowmobiles and I take Josh out on the trails. My brother goes out with us most of the time.”

“Devon has never been on a snowmobile. I guess I haven’t since high school. Megan’s family had them and she took me out on it a few times.”           

            “Maybe we can go out on the trails this winter.” She looked surprised, and he wondered if he was crazy for suggesting it. “You must think I am crazy. It’s August, and I’m already talking about taking you snowmobiling.”

            “I don’t think you are crazy. I think you are very nice to offer.”

            Nice? That wasn’t quite the impression he was going for.

Come back next week for Chapter 8 of

May I have this Dance.

3 Weeks to Release Day

My novella, Serena’s New Year’s Wish, will be released in three weeks on Friday, November 5.

I am so excited about this book! It’s a sequel to my Christmas Wish novella.

Serena’s New Year’s Wish will arrive just in time for the holidays.

Serena came to Chicago for a fresh start. She never imagined that her new boss was the father of the little girl she saved, or the man that she is falling in love with. Her heart has room for Mark and his daughter, but she wants more than he is willing to give.

Mark didn’t expect a second chance at love, but he is certain that he and Serena are a perfect match. Only they can’t agree on one very important thing. Is he willing to let go of his fear to give Serena the desire of her heart? Or will his decision to stick with his plan drive her away?

On Monday, November 8, I will be co-hosting a launch party with author Katy Eeten, who also has a Christmas novella releasing. We will have guest authors, games and prizes. Stay tuned for a Facebook invitation to the party.

For local readers, I will be giving a talk on Tuesday, November 9 and sharing my journey from the first story I wrote in second grade to the release of my new books. A Q&A will follow after the talk.

I will have print copies of my books available to purchase and sign at the event.

A second local booksigning is planned for later in November, which I will be co-hosting with another local author.

There are exciting things in store for my writing, and I can’t wait to share it all with you!

Coming November 5:

Serena’s New Year’s Wish

She found an unexpected love, but will she be able to give up her wish in order to keep the relationship alive

May I have this Dance Chapter 6

Chapter Six

Chase

Chase wondered how Brooke was dealing with the gossip. On Monday night, after he’d tucked Maddie into bed, he sat in the screened-in sunroom alone. He had his cell phone in hand. He brought up Brooke’s contact information. Was he being a fool to think that she’d felt the connection between them?

            She answered on the second ring. “Hello?”
            “Hi, Brooke, it’s Chase.”

            “Oh, hi, Chase.” She sounded breathless, and nervous.

            “Hey, I wanted to call and apologize for getting involved Saturday night.”

            “Involved?”

            “Yeah. When Ben started in, I should have left it alone.”

            “Oh, okay.” Her tone was disappointed. “I thought it was nice that you stood up for me.”

            That was a relief. “You did?”

            “Yes, I did. But it seems to have become the news headline.”

            “I know. That’s why I called. I was hoping you were handling it okay.”

            “I don’t like that they have blown it all out of proportion. Especially when my sister told me Megan said you had your hands all over me in the pickup.”

“Technically, it was just your waist.” He realized how stupid that sounded, and was glad to hear her laugh.

“Who would have thought we would be linked? Valedictorian and homecoming king.” Brooke sounded like she could not believe they could go together. “Makes quite the tabloid headline.”

He laughed. “If we’re in the tabloids, then Megan is the paparazzi.”

It sounded like Brooke choked and then laughed. “I’ll tell her you said that.”

Chase grimaced. He did not want to give Megan any more to gossip about.

“No, don’t. Not that it matters. The damage is done.”

Now she wasn’t laughing. “Have you told anyone that I invited you in for coffee? I didn’t tell Megan that, or anyone else. I mean, if you already told people, I guess that’s okay. But I’m not sure what they will say when they hear that I invited you into my house.”

At the worry in her voice, he quickly told her, “The only person I told was my younger brother, and only because he asked me outright. He wouldn’t have believed me if I’d lied.”

Brooke sighed with relief. “I’ve lost count of the times I’ve lied and said you left after you dropped me off.”

“I haven’t told anyone else, because I was worried about your reputation. I’ve been the subject of gossip before, but you just came back to town. I hate that Ben caused a scene and started this whole thing.”

“It will all blow over, eventually.” Brooke sounded hopeful, but not convinced.

He leaned forward and rested his forehead in his hand, feeling the shakiness in the hand that held the phone. “What if I don’t want it to blow over?”

“What do you mean?”

            “Would you go out with me this Friday night?”

            “On a date?” she squeaked.

            “Yes, a date.” He felt his heart pounding in nervous anticipation.

            “Why?” Brooke asked in disbelief.

            He was going to have to explain something he didn’t understand himself. He took a breath and steadied his nerves.

            “I enjoyed our conversation.” And the dance, and the coffee, he wanted to add, but left that out. He would tell her that when he could see her face and gauge her reaction.

            “Well, that won’t put any rumors to rest.”

He could hear the laughter in her voice.

            “Nobody has to know unless you want them to. There isn’t any place to have a good meal around here, not a nice sit-down dinner, anyway. I thought we could go out of town and get seafood.”

Brooke

            Wow! Just, wow! Brooke felt her heart swell in amazement. Chase was asking her on a date. A real-live, sit-down dinner date. She’d felt a connection last night and had wondered if he’d felt it, too. She guessed she had her answer.

            “Um, I would love to go out with you. But Chase—” She could hear him take a breath, and quickly added, “I’m allergic to shellfish.”

            He laughed. “That’s a relief. I thought you were going to turn me down. I can take you out for pasta or steak, if you prefer it.”

            “Either one is fine.”

            “But you prefer pasta, I’ll bet.”

            She smiled. “Because I’m a woman?”

            “Well, I guess—” He stammered, and she felt bad for teasing him.

            “I do prefer pasta.”

            “I have to work out the details, make sure it’s okay with my mom to watch the kids.”

            “I’ll have to make arrangements also. I’ve heard that the neighbor girls are good babysitters. I’ll ask one of them to come over and sit with the kids. Devon will have a fit, because he thinks he is old enough to stay alone. Which he is, by himself, for a short time, but not to watch Brinley for a few hours.” Brooke knew she was babbling and stopped to take a breath.

            “I can pay for your sitter,” he said.

            “Oh, no. That’s all right. I can pay her.”

            He didn’t argue. In fact, he was silent, and she wondered if she had only imagined his invitation.

            “I’ll call you later in the week to set up a time, if that’s okay.”

            The warmth in his voice filled her with excitement. “That will be fine.”

When she hung up, she covered her mouth with her hands, afraid she would burst out with a shout of joy.

            When she walked into the living room, Devon stared at her. She wondered if her excitement over the dinner date showed in her face. “Are you all right, Mom?”

            “I’m fine. Why? Don’t I look all right?”

            “Your face is red, and your eyes are shining.”

            She couldn’t hide her feelings from a twelve-year-old. How was she going to hide her emotions from Chase when she went out with him Friday night?

Come back next week for Chapter 7 of

May I have this Dance.

The Storm inside my Brain

Good Monday Morning.

As I contemplated what to write about this week, this photo came up in my Facebook memories.

My niece Rachel created this drawing in an art class when she was a teenager. When I saw it, I asked if I could have a copy. She gave me the original.

(Warning: This is a long and emotional post.)

This artwork is a picture of what it feels like in my brain when I am battling depression and anxiety. I read a book once, “There’s a storm inside my brain.” Someone who has never experienced it themselves cannot fully understand.

Having navigated through the challenges the past 11 years have brought, since I lost my husband in a tragic work accident, I now live in a place of mental stability. But it’s been hard-won.

Sometimes, circumstances come up that set me back emotionally. Then the battle rages and I struggle.

I’ve been very candid about my journey out of depression and my bouts of anxiety. I feel that by being open and sharing how I have worked through it, that someone else might be helped. Maybe it won’t take them 8 years of counseling to work through their problems, and they will find healing quicker because of what I’ve shared about my own struggles.

Today I’m sharing another part of my journey.

My daughter was born in March 1993. At my yearly physical in October 1993, I cried in my PA’s office. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I believe now that I suffered from undiagnosed postpartum depression that never went away.

The next year was a blur as we lost my husband’s dad and my mom had health problems. I was overwhelmed with having two young kids. I took shots for birth control that made me gain weight and I was overall unhealthy.

In October 1994, I went back to the PA for my yearly checkup. I cried again. She said I was depressed and put me on Zoloft. She put me on three pills a day and recommended counseling. I found a Christian counselor but it was an hour from my house and I couldn’t make the appointments with two small children. The counselor said part of my problem was living in an old trailer with dark walls and I needed light.

In January 1995, I saw a medical doctor for for a routine appointment. He said I was on a high dose of Zoloft. Instead of cutting back the dose, I went against medical advice and cut it out.

Part of the reason for stopping my medication was that I’d asked for prayer for healing. The minister prayed that I would be delivered from the spirit of depression. I wrongly felt that if it were a spirit of depression, then when he prayed for me, I was healed. The pastor didn’t know I was on medication and may never have suggested I quit taking it, but I will never know, because that’s what I did.

We bought a doublewide that let lots of light in and I was good emotionally for a couple of years, before the pattern started all over again. Depression filtered through my life until I had more bad days per month than good.

During those years, I struggled to maintain the house and tried a variety of different jobs, unsuccessfully. I had health issues due to the weight gain and poor diet and lack of exercise.

In 2003, my life crash came crashing down. After a few traumatic weeks of slipping slowly, I suddenly spiraled into a state where my sense of reality was altered. Fortunately, I was committed to a mental hospital before I hurt myself or caused anyone else to get hurt.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

I was immediately put on medication and attended therapy sessions. When I was released a few days later, I didn’t feel confident about going home. However, I had the support of my husband, parents, in-laws and siblings. Together they formed a support network, helping with the kids and house and taking me to my appointments.

I started seeing a counselor who gave me very practical things to work on. Over the next few months, I worked with her as the medication began to take effect and work in my brain. A gain of 40 pounds in 9 months caused more physical health problems and a change in medication helped control that issue.

I vividly remember every detail of the virtual nightmare that caused me to be hospitalized. While it was a horrible experience for myself, my husband and my kids, it was a necessity to bring me to a point where I could find help.

Like I mentioned, that was in 2003. I began a many-years-long struggle to overcome the depression and anxiety that had marked my life up to that point. I had ups and downs, which is common with bipolar. I never quit going to the psychiatrist. I worked with a variety of counselors, getting some help here and there.

The psychiatrist tried different medications and several times a combination worked. Then I would think I was feeling better and drop one, only to have problems a few weeks or months later. Eventually, I learned to take the medications as prescribed, and found a sense of normalcy.

When my husband passed away suddenly in 2010, I thought I would fall apart. But somehow, by the grace of God and my network of support, I managed to carry on with life and take care of my kids.

But I was stuck in grief that turned into depression. I didn’t know how to change or move forward.

In 2013, God led me to the Christian counselor who literally changed my life. I’ve shared details about my journey through depression in previous blog posts, so I won’t go into that here.

I haven’t, however, admitted to the bipolar diagnosis prior to now to anyone besides family and a few friends.

I hope that you, as my faithful readers, will be understanding.

Maybe you have someone in your life that you can relate this to.

Or maybe some of you struggle with the chemical imbalance.

I freely admit that I am taking a blend of medications that keep me from spiraling again into mania or falling into depression. I don’t even want to think about where I would be today if I didn’t have the support of my siblings and aunts (My parents passed away in 2004 and 2005) who listened to my problems and took me to appointments. Or without the medication prescribed by the psychiatrist I’ve been going to since 2003, and in recent years, the Christian counselor.

I’ve heard that people with bipolar disorder often self-medicate with drugs and alcohol. As a teen, I did try a sip of beer one time and spit it into the sink. I also tried a couple of sips of a mixed drink one time and though it didn’t taste bad, the person I was with wouldn’t allow me more than two sips, as I was a minor. I’ll always be thankful for that.

Those few sips were the extent of my trying alcohol. Through God’s provision, I went away to a Christian college and stayed in the dorms. God protected me from getting into situations where my faith would be compromised. As a result of the Bible teaching and Christian fellowship, my faith became grounded.

I admit that in 2013, I was tempted to turn to alcohol when I faced the third anniversary of my husband’s death. I abstained from drinking. Instead, I ate a cake labeled, “Death by Chocolate” that raised my blood sugar. Shortly after that anniversary date, God led me to the Christian counselor who has changed my life through the way she shares God’s truth with me.

I now know that depression is not a spirit that can be prayed out of someone. I don’t know what the Biblical reference is for that belief. I do know that depression and bipolar disorder are chemical imbalances in the brain.

I read somewhere that a person can be predisposed to bipolar disorder and never experience it in life. But another person who is predisposed might have enough stresses in life to bring it out. That’s what happened to me. Many different problems outside my control collided and caused me to slip over the edge of reality and I suffered a mental breakdown.

Where was God in all of this?

Why didn’t He heal me?

Why did He allow me to break down in the first place?

Why did He allow all of those things into my life that caused the breakdown?

I can’t begin to answer all of those questions.

For me, the answers don’t matter.

I believe:

God is good all the time.

He created a perfect world. When sin entered into the world through the fall of Adam and Eve, it created problems in every area of life. Sickness and disease, even mental illness, are a result of the fallen world.

A Christian can have mental illness. It isn’t a spiritual problem. It isn’t a sin. It isn’t a condition that can be changed through prayer alone. If it were, I would not have dealt with it over and over again in my life.

However, I am a walking example of how God has brought healing into my life. With time, medication, a strong support system, a wise medical team and counseling that is retraining my brain to think positively about God and myself, I live most of my days with my mind at rest from the storms of bipolar.

That doesn’t mean I don’t struggle. I haven’t had a full-blown mania episode since that first one in 2003, although certain times of the year or circumstances might cause me to spiral a little. That’s where my support system, a tweak of my medication and additional counseling pull me back from the brink.

I don’t know what the future holds, what the challenges are that I will yet have to face. I do trust God with my future, however.

Phillipians 1:4-6 says:

In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

A common saying when I was growing up was, “God’s not finished with me yet.”

I’m so thankful that He isn’t done renewing my mind with the truth of His word. Every time I rise to and defeat a challenge, my faith in God, and my confidence in myself, get stronger. He is a perfect God, and He has a plan for my future.

Welcome October

I love the shift into cooler temperatures that ushers in the fall season. I’ve dug my sweaters and fuzzy socks out of storage.

Soon there will be bursts of color in the trees. I look forward to my drive to and from work as my own personal color tour.

I don’t have anything on the calendar this month except working at my housekeeping job. Working at the deli on the weekends was a nice idea, until it brought on too much stress for me. So now I’ll go back to focusing on my primary job. I’ll have more time for writing on the weekends.

When I’m not writing, I’m dreaming up dialogue and scenes for my current and future projects. It seems that when I am busy laboring with my hands, my mind works and new ideas form.

Last week while washing dishes by hand, I received the inspiration for a scene and dialogue in one of the novellas I’m working on. I thought the novella was just going to be a nice story, but God had plans to take it deeper.

Writing that scene gave the novella a spiritual anchor that I hadn’t envisioned.

A few years ago, a friend who read the first few Courage books asked:

“What was in the trunks?”

I’d written about the trunks in the attic without considering what was in them besides clothes from a time in the heroine’s life when she was the belle of the ball. I hadn’t planned to mention the trunks again. My friend thought there might be something mysterious in them.

Turns out, she was right.

Shortly after my friend asked the question, I was working at the deli and cleaning out the deep fryer. The answer to what was in the trunks slipped into my mind, and I got goosebumps. Suddenly, there was a new plot in the story, a mystery to solve. The fallout from that scene changed the direction of the story, adding something new that I had never considered before.

(Currently books 1 and 2 of the Courage series are available on Kindle. Book 3 is under “construction” to prepare it for a Kindle version. After Christmas, I’ll have book 4 available, which answers the question of what was in the trunk.)

Me at my writing desk–not writing lol.

I love it when God works like that in my writing, slipping in dialogue and expressing Biblical truths that add another dimension to the story. That’s one reason why I don’t stick to a writing schedule. I do sit down and work on my stories a little each day, but I don’t spend hours at the computer unless the words are really flowing.

I don’t do well writing with a deadline, but I’ve given myself a time frame to get the novella done. With only one job to focus on and my weekends free again, it should be easier to find time to write.

Or to make time, anyway.

I’ll start by setting a timer to write in thirty-minute blocks, which sometimes turns into longer periods at the computer. I’ll also make sure I write some every day. Since I’m a morning person, I won’t accomplish much in the afternoon or evenings.

I apologize for being vague about the novella I’m working on. As soon as it’s finished and I find a home for it, I’ll give you more details. I promise.

Autumn is a season of cooler temperatures, wonderful scents and vibrant colors. I hope it is a good season in your life. But no matter what season we are in, God is in it with us, providing everything we need to get through the challenges we might face.

And sometimes, He shows up in little ways that make significant changes in our lives. Like when He slips in dialogue when I am plotting scenes in my stories, and adds a spiritual layer to them that I hadn’t envisioned.

God is Good–All the Time.

Happy October.